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in the ring
In the RingLindsay L. O’Connor Well today, I was just fighting with God.I mean fighting. I woke up early, stomach upset,and was just “doing panic” for an hour.I reminded God of all the lovely ways God has helped me through panic before,but God would not be moved. “We’ve done this before,” I said.“Remember the reassurances?The…
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soul song
soul songby Lindsay L. O’ConnorI’ve been slowing down, saying, “No,”striving less, nothing to show.Takes such energy just to grow,and I’m spent.Not trying to grow, produce, or figure out,keep breathing, try a new route.If you’re wondering what it’s all about, I don’t know.I’m just trying to feel my own soul again,to remember that I’m whole again.Life’s…
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My Mother’s Song
My Mother’s SongIn a world where shame all but screams,“Not enough! Not enough!”I hear a Holy whisper say,“Maybe there is more.”We say we trust and hope,but our clenched fists give us away.We’ve been told for so long,in so many ways,the lie of “Not enough.”Scarcity chases us into survival modebegetting competition and hierarchy,suspicion, self-protection,and grasping for…
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Loving Day!🎉 27 picture books with multiracial families
Happy Loving Day! 🎉🎉🎉 Loving Day is June 12, the anniversary of the 1967 Supreme Court decision (Richard and Mildred) Loving v. Virginia, which struck down all laws against interracial marriage in the U.S. At the time, 16 states had such laws. In celebration, I’m sharing children’s books with multiracial families. If you want to…
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Tree School
When I’m with the trees, they never make me feel inadequate.Some of them have been there, bearing witness to all my joys and hurts, for over a decade.We’ve grown together.They remind me that seasons changeand that what I thought was deadis sometimes resurrected.They teach me about weathering stormsand how a tough exteriorforcefully pulled off by…
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all I know: a waiting song
I’m not a songwriter, but a few weeks ago, I wrote this song. I was waiting for news from a very important doctor appointment for someone whom I love so much, it hurts. I was beside myself with anxiety. I couldn’t think straight or get anything done, so I stepped outside and paid attention to…
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The Enneagram and Respite: 9 Invitations to Rest
Everyone I know is exhausted. We are all tired, but perhaps rest can bring different benefits based on our particular personalities. I wanted to share these nine Enneagram number-specific invitations to rest that can be used as meditations. Peace be with you. OneRest & hear the truer voice call you “good.” TwoRest & see how…
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resurrection reflections: the messy middle
Content warning: miscarriage Resurrection is messy. In my evangelical Christian upbringing, I learned that Easter is a time to celebrate, but I never heard anyone talk about the complexity of learning to hope again after death. This never occurred to me until I experienced death and resurrection within my own body. A liminal space exists…
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to Sabbath like a lizard
To Sabbath Like a LizardI didn’t read my Bible today.I sprawled out on our aging deckand kicked off my shoes.The skin of my bellyinadvertently made contactwith the sun-warmed wood underneath.I can see why lizards do this, I thought.I heard the leaves rustle overheadas the breeze swept through my haira dog barkeda bird warbledI became aware…
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manifesto for the beloved
I am loved,apart from anything Ido or don’t do,think or don’t think,believe or don’t believe,feel or don’t feel.In this moment,I am held in Love, just as I am. My weakness opens me to:compassion,awareness,vulnerability,and growth.I am always becoming. My body is wise & good,carrying out the beauty myheart & mind want to act upon.She holds unmatched…