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the inconvenience of our sadness
The Inconvenience of Our Sadness Do you ever feel so tired, you just weep and weep and weep? Weeping sounds so beautiful, like a willow— elegant sadness stretching out perpetually, showing off her delicate leaves draped on bending branches. My sadness never feels that lovely. It feels ugly, self-indulgent, and inconvenient— an obstacle to all…
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when you begin to feel again
When life is overwhelming, our wise bodies sometimes take an overdue break and our obedient hearts and minds follow suit. Maybe it feels like fatigue or illness or depression or apathy. Everything just shuts down. It all felt like too much, and it was. You were never meant to carry so much alone. And then,…
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sisterhood of the sacred dance: afraid & free
Sisterhood of the Sacred Dance: Afraid & Free Something they don’t tell you about freedom is that it can feel scary as hell, at first. Even as you celebrate the broken shackles, the lightness of your limbs feels unnatural, like you have become untethered and might just float away. When you wake up to the…
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Anxiety Dance
Anxiety Dance I used to think anxiety was a moral failure, a personal flaw, an indication of a lack of faith. I thought if I tried hard enough and prayed often enough, I could send her away, her departure the reward for my spiritual growth. Then, do you know, the more I tried to get…
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a prayer for women OR a blessing for dissident daughters
a prayer for women or a blessing for dissident daughters Today I’m holding women close in my heart. I have a prayer to share for us all but would also be honored to pray for you specifically if you would like. Just comment or send a DM. A prayer for us all: God our Mother,…
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stuck.
Dear friend, Sometimes, feeling “stuck” is a holy invitation to get still & quiet as you surrender & allow the birth of something beautiful. – 🖤- L.L.O. Three and a half weeks before my firstborn child was due to arrive, I spent the day on the couch. We were deep into the month of July…
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postpartum depression
CW: Postpartum Depression & Anxiety “Did you ever think you could love something this much?” Sometimes the most innocent words spoken at a particular moment can pierce your heart and expose the shame that scurries to the shadows, trying to remain unseen. My smile felt awkward and unconvincing. How could I tell the pediatrician—a wonderful,…
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2021 in Books!
Happy New Year! 2021 was a doozy, but it was a fantastic year in books. I read more books this year than in any previous year! These were my favorites: 1. God Speaks Through Wombs by Drew Jackson 2. The Color Purple by Alice Walker 3. The House in the Cerulean Sea by T.J. Klune 4.…
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power trip
Power Trip Signs, wonders, and miracles are the shiny packages that tell us of God’s might but oh, how we have despised God’s weakness! And in so doing, perhaps we have learned to despise our own. But Jesus submitted to the vulnerability of birth and death and all the joy and pain and every-day-ness in…
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listen to your rage
Listen to your rage and hear the ache underneath— the excruciating gap between “should be” and “is actually.” Sometimes we call it grief. Feel it in your body— a burning, consuming flood of adrenaline priming you for action because “is actually” is actually unbearable. When your rage collapses, listen for its wisdom. Let it tell…
Lindsay L. O'Connor
Writer | Speaker | Spiritual Director-in-Training
Lindsay L. O'Connor 